Daily wakening

sat up
yes
it was time
to sit up.

start the day when you are awake
start the real practice when you awaken
who awakens?
what awakens?

clarity invites more clarity

no one is wrong or right
it is more than that
more complex,
diverse,
great, really.
simple
unconditioned.

the duality rests
you land in the heart again.

everything
will return to its source
he said.
the attraction to do so
is innate,
primordial,
before and after form.

Creation awaits

sometimes
there is no word
available or known
a feeling is only what is

tears and stopping
feel kiss flow
feel kiss
feel
feel
kiss with breath
feel
feel
Breathe
as a kiss

lighter than a moment before
pushing through isn't what is called for.
the old patterns rising
wearing out, thinning
fearing the unknown,
their death and freedom

so human
walk with
not away from.

closer,
creation awaits
mean it.
as if for the first time.

rough waves

unsettling

inner weather patterns

passing 

through me

i grasp for a hold

and there is none.

breathing 

deeper

where is the still point?

deeper

below the waves

now, 

dive

now.

the morning guest

Here is that vague feeling again
The morning guest
Of not enough
I need more
A vibration of fear
Or is it the fluttering of arrival
As the in-boxes empty?

The bird feeder is full though
And I braved the cold in my pajamas to fill it.
My coffee is nearby,
the eyes of my heart are open,
And my fingers ready to scribe.

What will I open to meet today,
Scribing in word or in color?

In the stillness
I ready me to stay near myself,
To be empty enough for the response
That fulfills the promise I’ve made
to be true and in joy
and to be so expressed.

a powerful deal

Surrender is not a path or practice.

But it takes practice to
Bring yourself to the doorway
Of your longing,
Of your suffering.

Practice to stay
hovering in the heat,
On the edge
of what is unresolved,
In the hope
of one more stone to turn over.

By allowing the mind to
have its way with you,
suffering arises.

The search to understand,
To resolve
simply becomes intolerable and unnecessary
In the face of what is whole and true.

When you surrender to what is
You don’t lose your mana.
It is, in fact, all you are left with.

It’s yours
To hold
But not to keep.

Family inheritances are ended.

Gratitude begins to give it away,
for free.

What a great deal !

It is an act of profound kindness
Wisely facilitated by the soul
through karma,
Lovingly embraced by the Heart
As its freedom.


Turn radically within,
Surrender to your longing
Find what you long for
And be found by what longs for you.

You have the power to transform
Everything.

Peony Practice 101

 

womb feels drenched
filling with blood
(and I am way beyond my bleeding years.....)
softening.

The practice
is to bring attention to the inside
as the breath.

may I be one with the breath
without expectation
may I feel what is there
where breath touches.

 I feel ready 
to find my way
 in.

I follow the sound of hreem
through the dark
seeing women's faces 
saturated in a hunger that has turned to ugliness
feeling ages of wombs 
being used from the outside.


Breath touches the womb 
of a 6 year old, 
of a mother of three 
of a sensual woman.

Longing for more of Her Touch.

Patient Peony Practice.....
patiently practicing being peony



all the kitchen drawers and cabinet doors are hanging open, 
a sure sign I am softening 
keeping constant order seems not to matter any longer. 


Peony Practice is a practice re-created and shared by Chameli Ardagh, www.awakeningwomen.com