i never know

i never know
i only ever describe.

some loud voice keeps reprimanding me that
i thought
i knew
any thing.

and tonight,
well, you know the drill...
STOP!
i replied.

i have been in relationship
to every thing
for ever.

i have created and destroyed
i have given away and sold what i love
i have been madder than hell
and madder than a hatter, too.

I am the one who still cares.
and I am the one who gives herself the space needed to rediscover care.