desire

the old in me is dead
pure desire is left.

i cannot live without it.

the wheel is in my own hands
i see where desire has taken me

there is no map
but there is always a sense
of the right direction.

oh, yes.

now
i am turning it inward.

i trust it to lead me home,
continually,
without end.

does the doe taste the dew?

Here is how it begins
The voices in my head get too loud.

I sense that someone is listening now.
And if I write,
what needs to speak
can be heard.
And a mysterious conversation begins
That fills me with delight.

I’m here.
You’ve shown me,
Not how to be human,
But that I am.

Five senses and more
Actively participate
In the dynamic of giving and receiving.

So, where does this conditioning reside?
It seems to be the guest in the house,
who comes looking for a bed (again!) for the night
Or a cup of tea.

Conditioning wants to be re-membered, re-united.
Not feared, blamed or exalted.
It doesn’t need healing, but holding.
Loved,
it comes to rest.

Conditioning is not creative
It repeats itself.

Everything keeps changing
and it doesn’t.
At some point this becomes very obvious.

We are compelled
Out of love,
to stop this suffering.
There is no rush,
But we use every means we can.
And then, there is love,
As it was in the beginning.


To see what is happening,
live alone.
Or live with another who is as committed as you are,
not to leave you alone.
Children and siblings can support you in this
they carry an unspoken commitment
made before you can remember.

The buck simply stops here,
Where you are.
And the does continue to graze into the moonlit night,
Tasting the dew.

a powerful deal

Surrender is not a path or practice.

But it takes practice to
Bring yourself to the doorway
Of your longing,
Of your suffering.

Practice to stay
hovering in the heat,
On the edge
of what is unresolved,
In the hope
of one more stone to turn over.

By allowing the mind to
have its way with you,
suffering arises.

The search to understand,
To resolve
simply becomes intolerable and unnecessary
In the face of what is whole and true.

When you surrender to what is
You don’t lose your mana.
It is, in fact, all you are left with.

It’s yours
To hold
But not to keep.

Family inheritances are ended.

Gratitude begins to give it away,
for free.

What a great deal !

It is an act of profound kindness
Wisely facilitated by the soul
through karma,
Lovingly embraced by the Heart
As its freedom.


Turn radically within,
Surrender to your longing
Find what you long for
And be found by what longs for you.

You have the power to transform
Everything.